It is impossible to contemplate God with His beauty, might, grace, mercy, righteousness, and all the other attributes without looking at us in our insignificance. God is perfect, holy, infinite, and extremely powerful. So every time that we approach His throne and are able to see clearly who He really is, we should not have other attitude but to kneel down.
This is what the second color reminds us – our finitude, our brokenness, our unholiness, in a more simple way of putting – our sinfulness. The color in the past was black, but politically correctness transformed it in swirled or marbled, depending where you get them.
As I said in the first meditation, some books and bracelets are supposed to start here, with our sins, but I disagree with that. I start with God and His greatness. In this way I am able to compare how pure He is and how dirty we are. It is important for us to understand that we are not god, we are extremely far from that. We are humans, broken humans. We have in us the seed of rebellion, the virus of evil. Even the Christians struggle throughout their whole life with this bended nature.
So, every time that we contemplate God we are forced to look at ourselves and realize who we are, and how far we are from perfection. This is what Isaiah went through when in a difficult time of his life he saw the Lord seated on His throne. Here is the narration: “In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another: “Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory.” At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke. “Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.” Isaiah 6:1-5.”
After that tremendous vision of God on His throne, Isaiah looked at himself: “Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.” That is the right reaction of someone who is able to understand the nature of God and his own nature.
So every time that I look to that part of the bracelet I meditate in my sinfulness. I look and realize that even though I came a long way in my Christian journey, I am still far from perfection. I still have areas in my life that need to be dealt with and need be exposed to the grace and mercy of our Lord.
What we cannot do is to stop moving forward. Even though we are sinners we should not diminish our progress. Like the apostle Paul, we need to realize that we are not there yet, but we will keep pressing on: “Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Philippians 3:12.”
Have a blessed Week,